Stylepilot
So this sounds easy right. It isn’t a big brainer, but what to you do when you don’t know what your dreams are? What if you just haven’t figured out what it is that you want with your life, how do you then plan, when the destination is still unknown? The most of you wouldn’t pack a back not knowing whether you where packing to be laying around a golden beach sipping colourfull drinks in the shades or visiting someone i Siberia. So how can you except this out from life?
I am so tired of people asking me what I want out of school, internship, work and my future, because i’m sorry, but I just don’t know yet. Believe me, if I did, I would have been there already. I don’t know if this is going to be my last education, what if I get up one morning and I suddenly want to become the next Bon Jovi? Can I do it then? Can I change plans when my dreams changes. Is it still allowed to have a change of heart and jump out of your first box and preceed into the next one? Or are we stucked when we get in?
I would like to know that the world is full of endless possibilities and that these also apply to me, no matter when in life I decide to scroll them through. I am not goood at making decisions. I get the feeling of being trapped, like there is a wrong choice to make, and if I do choose wrongly will it be to late when I figure it out?. How is it possible to know exactly what you want to do without having tried it?
Somethings you just have to jump in and try. I didn’t have a dream of being af parent, I love it now and wouldn’t change it for anything in the entire world, but I didn’t get pregnant because it was a dream of mine. Now I really do not know what my dreams where before. I never wanted to be a stay at home mom, so I started back at school after my maternity leave ended and then I found out that I do not want to be apart from my daughter. I would have liked to stay home with her, maybe just for another year or so. But I am also afraid that I would get bored if I had stayed at home with her. I chose school, not because it was easy, but because I hope that in the long term this choice is going to make me and my family the happiest.